Living With Loss

On April 25, 2011, my precious daughter, Kylleen, left this earth world. She came here on February 15, 1980, with promises of new life and a new order of consciousness.  She came here, as many Windows did, to bridge the world of darkness to the world of Light. And like so many Windows, she lost her battle to stay in order to help our world, and instead, decided she could do her best work from the other side of the human world. And…indeed she has.

There can never be enough written to explain what the loss of child is to a parent. The one single thread that draws us (parents) together is the personal knowing and pain that a child’s death brings. It cannot truly be explained for it is an organic experience…with words paling in comparison to the journey. However, today I will honor my beautiful daughter with her journey now…in those other worlds…those other realms which seek to support our life here.

Every parent has to make sense of losing their child, whether or not that is truly possible. For me and my belief system, the continuation of life after death is guaranteed. I am in the business of spirit communication…although it is much more of a life calling. I have helped many to discover the meaning and consciousness of their loved ones after they have passed from this world to the next. I have held the energy of love and reconciliation for those left behind. It is truly a gift which I am grateful to have, for no one should feel left behind, questions unanswered. I never thought that I, too, would have the first hand opportunity of experiencing the loss of a child and therefore would have a deeper sense of what that means to a parent(s). It seems our children give us many gifts and learning experiences and death seems to be one of them.

In the next series of posts I will be sharing what it means to be a Window Child. It is time and I have promised Kylleen that I will step into this next part of her story in a public way. And so, today, in honor of Kylleen’s life here and in the next world, I am stepping into the story of intrigue and psychic warfare, magic and all things spiritual. My daughter has given her life for this special work. So it is time to make sure that all of those beautiful spirits who have come here to claim this world back from the darker forces, are honored, recognized and supported. The time has come. I love you, Kylleen. Happy Four Year anniversary into the world of Love and Light!

Please check out my song: Process of the Heart…this song honor our mother/daughter relationship and her new life in the world of Light.

# 45 The Day of Completion

It is done. It is finished. In the practice of numerology the number 45 becomes a nine.  This is a completion number…a full circle number. We have completed a powerful time within us. We can relax now and be at peace. We have done great things for ourselves. We are champions, warriors, lovers, healers and wisdom beings. We are light and love, unlimited in consciousness, willing to be and go anywhere our I Am Source directs and guides us. We take this day to honor and celebrate all that we have done, all that we will continue to do and all that we are becoming!

We are at peace knowing how much we are love, loved and loving. We continue to reflect in the amazing power  and authority of spiritual awakening. We have lost self-pity, victimization, doubt and un-forgiveness and have replaced these thought structures  with Self-direction, Sacred connection, Forgiveness, Grace and Unconditional Love. We continue to serve the Christ, Buddha, Divine Consciousness and Creation which lives within us all. We honor and respect ourselves and others for our choices, growth and wisdom gained by walking with  courage through the darkest parts of our being.

This is the day we are making and we Rejoice In It!

Thank you, each and everyone, for taking this Sacred journey with me. It has been a pleasure and an honor. Your comments have inspired me as well and I look forward to a continued life of communication. Remember that all these posts are archived on my website: jeannlove.org.

In the meantime…remember…You Are So Loved!

Namaste’

#44 In The Stillness

In the stillness of this day, between Good Friday and Easter, I celebrate my being. I gently move into the depth of my soul and revel in the glory of my creation. As I sit in the quietness of this day I reaffirm all that is Holy…All that is God. I hold this consciousness for others and remain true to my spiritual roots. I remember my truth: that of God lives within me. That of God lives within us all. Love is unconditional and forgiving. I am that love. I am that forgiving. I open mine eyes unto the hills and feel the promise of my own salvation facing me.  It is because I am the I AM. I am eternal, infinite and ever-evolving.

These are my truths and I rejoice in them. I carry them within me at all times…in my heart and in the very soul of me. The illusions are gone and new life begins. All is good. All is God and I am rejoicing.

I love you…Please forgive me…I am sorry…Thank you!

 

 

#43 Today Is…

On this Good Friday let’s take a moment to count our many blessings.  We have walked this Lenten Series together and have begun to walk in a New Light and Life. We have registered with our new thoughts and way of being. We have been in the process of elimination. We have cleared all the old thoughts, structures and conditions which keep us away from our Truth.

So, for today, we make these statements as we finish the last few days of this Lenten season:

Today is a new day.

Today is powerful.

Today is mine.

I am freer within myself than I have ever been.

Today is worthy of every lived and love directed moment.

Today I hold all peoples in the Circle of Love.

Today I forgive.

Today I trust.

Today I give thanks.

Today I AM.

I love you…Please forgive me…I am sorry…Thank you!

# 42 Removing the Doubt

Sometimes, no matter what we know or how we have experienced life, there is DOUBT. Of course we acknowledge that doubt is connected to fear. The biggest healing element in redirecting doubt is through the energy wisdom of trust. Trust is so often removed from our consciousness through abuse: physically, mentally, sexually and in the betrayal of those crimes of consciousness.

We often choose families, friends and circumstances which might be in our lives to teach us how to move from doubt and fear to love and forgiveness. Often, however, the disconnect is much greater than anticipated and working to dissolve the negative energies of doubt and fear prove much stronger than our ability to love and forgive…to trust.

Removing doubt happens in stages and almost always has to do with our connection to the Divine. When the connection to the Divine is damaged, when the fears of our lives seem greater than our connection to our God Source we fear our own ability to create, to step out of our limited view and take (perceived) risks. We would rather know every detail of the the next experience before stepping into an unknown area of experience or set of circumstances. Doubt overrides trust and we continue to be encircled with the snare of fear rather than the circle of love.

Ego…an Extremely Gigantic Organization…puts the mind/ego into fear and doubt and wants to control every experience…just in case there might be an unforeseen error. Unfortunately, enjoying the flow of love and success in our lives does not work that way. In order to work through our doubt about opportunities, people and situations, we must first step into the Sacred Source. This space guarantees our connection to the Divine and in the Divine there is complete trust and inspiration.  There is clarity and progression.  We are open and able to receive creative flow without any doubt, hidden or perceived.

Today we walk in Trust as we know and recognize that Trust comes from our Divine connection to the God Source. We lose the doubt that at times has crippled us and choose instead to “progress with freedom” as we are illumined and inspired, trusting our connection with the Divine.

I love you…Please forgive me…I am sorry…Thank you!

 

#41 All In Due Time

My dear friends…all in due time. There are many times in our lives when we are hopeful, perhaps anxious about new situations, circumstances, happenings on their way for us.  However, many is the time when the wait seems endless and the patience of the personality is next to nothing. We feel like a child asking: “Are we there yet?”

It is especially difficult when we are asking for a healing for ourselves or perhaps a friend or family member. Our prayers can start out pleasant and positive but as time goes on and we do not see the result we want or have a situation turn out the way we think it should,  we become disillusioned and lose the faith necessary to see the situation or condition through to the end.

Prayer is an endless expression of the Divine.  It has no beginning and no end.  It is consciousness.  It is Truth. Prayer moves energy so that it will match the desired energy configuration  for a successful outcome. When we pray without ceasing…when we pronounce the Truth of Wholeness in every situation, we start a cycle of completion.  Sometimes the cycle is short and sometimes the cycle is longer than we would like it to be. And sometimes the desired result does not match our expectation.

However, as we truly release with the power of knowing, that which needs to happen… will. We define the results with Sacred Healing and not our limited version of what we think must be.

In due time…but it is Sacred Time…not human time.  It is divinely ordered… not humanly placed with our fears and left over baggage shaping our prayers. We clear with the Ho’oponopono bringing the quiet space directly to our center and in that center our prayers are clear and balanced and holy. We let go of worry and concern and embrace the higher sacred power in all living things. We trust the unseen and relinquish any control we think we might have as we allow the energy of Love’s mastery to do its powerful work.

I love you…Please forgive me…I am sorry…Thank you!

 

 

#40 How Long Will We Wander?

Yesterday we spoke of our AWESOMENESS and how we are not tethered to original sin. Today we are going a bit further and asking: How long will we wander?

In order to really embrace our spirituality we must face our darkness.  We drive ourselves into a personal abyss when we refuse to look at how we are processing our world. Our courage to be MORE brings us to our own precipice of consciousness as we allow ourselves to face that within which does not carry the light. This journey can often be painful…only because there is so much resistance to letting go of all the false stories and accusations. We hold our stories so very dear.  We have spent much time on and with them.  We have added chapters.  We have encouraged our own suffering because we feel we are Right!

We know better now.  We are beginning to truly understand that we are the authors of our life’s story and we no long need to suffer in resentment, self-righteousness and victimization. We no longer need to wander and then wonder when the sorrow of old will be replaced with the joy of today.

This quote from Carl Jung states the truth of enlightenment so well: “There is no coming to consciousness without pain. People will do anything, no matter how absurd, in order to avoid facing their own soul. One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.”

How long will we wander, avoid, deny our own brilliance? How long will it take us to understand there is no sin except from our own refusal to be this incredible BEING. To bring the Light to our darkness, Forgiveness to our victim and Love to the anger, resentment and fear.

I believe in you…all of you! And I know that you are finished being the Wandering Soul.  You are now ready to go home…and become your original expression of the Divine.

Please check out John Denver’s: The Wandering Soul on Youtube. He never recorded it but performed it several times.  It is a beautifully written song about our struggle to understand how to “get there”…to be LOVE.

What an enlightened soul… I love you…Please forgive me…I am sorry…Thank you!

#39 Making It All Better

If I could say one thing to any of you who have been reading this series it would be this: YOU ARE AWESOME!

Today we are throwing out any and all old patterns, stories, ideas, critical voice experiences which tell you anything LESS!

The worst thing any religion could place on us is the blemish of original sin and that we are doomed before we come into this world. What? Really? Yes, there is a karmic path and we do choose conditions and people, situations etc for our earth contract. But the only doom and gloom about our lives is how we perceive ourselves in this earth existence.  There are many contributing factors to this but original sin is not one of them…ever.

We come in with lessons to learn, conditions to experience, gifts to bring.  Some choose a much more difficult contract than others.  However, it must be realized that the only salvation we can experience is through our own connection with the Divine.  When we have been separated  from our own divinity we experience all sorts of dark and challenging stuff.

Today we not only choose to remember this but we choose to ACT on it.  We choose our sacred connection to the Divine.  We realize that we are only separated by our fear, by the lack which has been perpetuated in group/collective consciousness. We choose to walk away from that which is not Holy and walk into our Sacred connection which has always been our right, our journey in this world.  Today our “mark” is that of LOVE. We destroy the old controlling stories which seek to perpetuate our slavery to the energy of separation and Dis-ease. Today we are AWESOME! Now…doesn’t that make everything All Better?!

I love you…Please forgive me…I am sorry…Thank you!

 

 

 

#38 Turning Water Into Wine

On this Palm Sunday I choose to use this metaphor in several ways. I can’t resist, however, saying that in California we would be better off turning wine into water these days! It is all about perspective and need.

We are Alchemists…each and every one of us, and we have been turning things into other things all of our lives.  We have been turning disappointment into understanding…chaos into wisdom…hatred and anger into love…resistance into acceptance…betrayal into support…lack into abundance. We can also say that we have done this alchemist thing in reverse by turning love into hate, success into failure, peace into anger, understanding into chaos etc.

What kind of alchemist are you? It might be a difficult perspective to take but it is highly important for each one of us to understand who we are and how we create and that nothing is stationary unless we choose it to be so. Today we allow the awareness to watch and listen to ourselves and how we work our personal alchemy.  How do we turn the bad into good, the sad into happy, the unfathomable into grace? How do we respond when news is difficult for us about a condition or a situation?  How do we work the response within ourselves making the choices that so often seem impossible to implement?

We speak to  the power of positive change…the perspective of choice and the understanding that as we think we create, as we believe so we manifest. We do not choose to be in denial. Rather we choose to go within, quiet the fears and center in the Divine.  We choose the Alchemist within us to help us direct our personal responses and ideas. We choose to be self-directed in our awareness of positive flow and spiritual support. We have the power within to choose our conditions and thoughts.  We have the alchemist within to help us gather the negative energies and throw them into the wind, allowing ourselves the freedom to be different, to be whole, confident, and supported.

Whether we realize it or not we are constantly turning water into wine…or wine into water.  It is about perspective and the knowledge that we are the Alchemist, connected to the Divine, working our way into the Sacred I AM Place of Creation.

 

I love you…Please forgive me…I am sorry…Thank you!

# 37 Somewhere Over the Rainbow

This is the time of the year where my family and I walk lightly.  It all has to do with the loss of our beloved Kylleen.  It was an 11 week journey from this world to the next as she passed to the other side the day after Easter.  At some point in the grieving process I had to make up my mind how I saw myself living my life without her. I had to give up my death story and begin to create a new life story.  So much of what I do is dedicated to her and who she is now on the other side.  She is my angel, my confidant and my peer in this spiritual work.

We all have lost someone we have loved.  We all have grieved the loss of this special person in our lives.  Death is part of life… often the hardest part of life. I bring this subject to the post today because there are many who come to me hoping to know that their loved one is ok after passing. Prayers for those who have passed are very important but so is listening.  So often they are right besides us…the only difference is the body being gone. They are hungry to let you know that they have arrived, that they have friends and relatives with them, special beings and angels to help guide their new journey. Their heaven is being free of the earth’s illusions and the confinement of the body. They have gone home and want to share with you what “home” is like.  They stand beside you to help with your grief and to remind you that we are all more than our bodies.

As we are getting closer to our completion of this series we owe it to ourselves to look to the rainbow.  It represents so much in our culture…resurrection, prosperity, hope and revival of the spirit. So many of our friends and relatives stand in that rainbow of energy hoping that you will join them…not in death, but in life, in memory, in honor, connection from one world to the next. Their spirits offer a peace and a consciousness which says…we are right here…we are eternal…we celebrate with you.

We are not alone…ever…it is the promise of the Divine to realize our destiny is everlasting life from life to life, world to world with our spirit guardians watching and preparing us as we move forward in our daily lives. Today we listen to those who stand beside us, perhaps unseen but truly felt.  We connect with the continuation of life somewhere over the rainbow.

I love you…Please forgive me…I am sorry…Thank you!